bittersweet

mondays are my day off. tuesday - this tuesday begins the last week of this era at the mile high meth project. it has been quite a ride. i am not clear of the next step, but i am finding a peace in knowing this ride is coming to a close. i have learned so much and connected with so many. and connected with so much inside myself, too. probably the most pleasant surprise is SIN. the guys i have met(some pictured above) have really opened my eyes and my heart to the amount of love i have to give.

i went into this substance abuse treatment endeavor with clear and whole intentions. the true test of my character, i suppose, is the quality of my intentions upon disembarking. can i remain true to my program and to my beliefs, amid all the distinctly opposite intentions that have been encountered?

sometimes a song will sum much of it up. and yes i suppose it is appropriate that the film soundtrack this is best known is "cruel intentions". i like this live version with richard ashcroft and coldplay. cruel intentions or not, this doesn't have to be the end of my story. hopefully, just a sharp contrast..

The Verve


Bittersweet Symphony Lyrics



'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Trying to make ends meet
You're a slave to money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the veins meet yeah

No change, I can't change
I can't change, I can't change
But I'm here in my mind
I am here in my mind
But I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mind
No, no, no, no, no, no, no,no,no,no,no,no(fading away)

Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

No change, I can't change
I can't change, I can't change
But I'm here in my mind
I am here in my mind
And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mind
No, no, no, no, no, no, no
I can't change
I can't change it

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Trying to make ends meet
Trying to find some money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the veins meet yeah

You know I can't change, I can't change
I can't change, I can't change
But I'm here in my mind
I am here in my mind
And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mind
No, no, no, no, no

I can't change my mind
no, no, no, no, no,
I can't change
Can't change my body,
no, no, no

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
Been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
That you've ever been down
That you've ever been down