Sunday, February 1, 2009
i am percolating with anxiety about tasks to be done this week. i am not certain that i will have the time to organize everything, let alone complete any of it. they say that a little fear is healthy. if that's the case, my health must not be in question. that doesn't account for my sanity though.
3 part time jobs, 2 service commitments, 2 non profits in the works, a sponsee, a newsletter and a new peer mentoring program starting in march. gurl- i need to focus a bit more.
later this week, michael van essen will be arriving to present 2 workshops. our small organization is hosting and presenting these, and i must say i am anxious. it's very curious how once money gets involved, meaning we are being paid to do these, the enjoyment factor shifts. but honestly, to balance that out, i find more i have a little more personal investment in my work.
there is a need for a refocus here. this journaling has been nourishing, but is currently undirected. i need to let inspiration re-emerge.
i have a lot of tasks ahead. i am hoping to come out the other side with a grin. i am hoping for the best and wish even better for you.
if you are new to recovery, my experience tells me it is possible to change. a 12-step program was the answer for me. i am not religious, but have always been spiritual, and 12 step allows plenty of room for my beliefs. plus it has given me access to a bevy of other people who are on a similar path.
don't give up, just hold on. make the effort to get through the day- clean and sober.
love ya.. i'm livin' the dream. maybe i'll see you on fb.
sound choice is "bounce" by timbaland and it is the final dance sequence from "step up 2 the streets". for better viewing hit full screen on youtube..