i will be arriving in la later this evening. the itinerary includes a trip to southbay- manhattan beach, including at least one (possibly 3) amends left from the tweaking days. i have faith that my intentions are good and that i can withstand any direction these may take. i have support in place, too. then i will attend a conference for a couple of days including workshops and meetings. i will be afforded the opportunity to spend time with some friends, including marc the trash whisper, and then i want to visit another fellow blogger who has been an inspiration to me. he has a blog titled aids-write and spearheads an advocacy program for medical marijuana. his name is richard kearns. he writes poetry, he is an activist, and he is a long term aids survivor. hopefully i can interview him a little and i will try to post it on the international carnival or somewhere along those lines.
"what's next" is a question rolling around my head even through this lovely weekend. and to tell the truth, i honestly don't know what is next. i am trying to get right with that fact. that i really don't know and that no matter what, not knowing is okay. and not knowing is where i need to be.
i do have faith that something really wonderful is beginning to happen in my world. i cherish that idea and hopefully am making room for that to move into my life.
and truth be told, i have been immersed in one segment of my life the last couple of weeks. it's been pretty hard to really look beyond that little nano-drama. and this is something that needs to change soon.
