step two

came.....

came to.....

came to believe......

came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

i guess for some of us the thought of a power greater than ourselves is a very difficult concept to invite in. but for me, i have always really believed that there is a power greater me. what was more difficult was believing that this "power" would have any positive thing to do with me as i had been such a villainous character most of my life. at least i think that is what i have believed. so that this power would have no real reason or motivation to restore me to sanity. more likely, it would banish me from sanity and leave me in purgatory where i was then residing. and i really had felt that i had to depend upon only myself for so long, that letting go of that concept and believing anything else seemed frankly ludicrous to me. but i got hungry to feel something different. and i got sick of being frustrated always. so bit by bit, my resistance was broken down and i indeed decided i would go ahead and allow the possibility of hope back into my life. as is said so many times, i became willing to be willing.

and my life has transformed.