dance hall days

this posted video is really pretty lame, but i am using it because this song was the shit at medusa's for a whole season. ministry is from chicago and they were just gaining momentum in popularity. this song was transitional from a more synth-pop style to the hard core style they became known for. i remember this was a lotta fun to dance to and hearing it makes me think of those dance hall days. ba ..ba ba.



complimentary ministry ringtones here

well I live with snakes and lizards
and other things that go bump in the night
cos to me everyday is halloween
I have given up hiding and started to fight
I have started to fight

well any time, any place, anywhere that I go
all the people seem to stop and stare
they say 'why are you dressed like it's halloween?
you look so absurd, you look so obscene'

o, why can't I live a life for me?
why should I take the abuse that's served?
why can't they see they're just like me
it's the same, it's the same in the whole wide world

well I let their teeny minds think
that they're dealing with someone who is over the brink
and I dress this way just to keep them at bay
cos halloween is everyday
it's everyday

o, why can't I live a life for me?
why should I take the abuse that's served?
why can't they see they're just like me
it's the same, it's the same in the whole wide world

o, why can't I live a life for me?
why should I take the abuse that's served?
why can't they see they're just like me
i'm not the one that's so absurd

why hide it?
why fight it?
hurt feelings
best to stop feeling hurt
from denials, reprisals
it's the same it's the same in the whole wide world

if i remember correctly, which is questionable, the year was 1983. goth was really just making its first swing into fashion. punk, per se, was almost conventional by that time, but the "something black something earring" look was just taking hold. anyway, goth was an attitude, and the lyrics here really spoke to the isolating, dark, and brooding attitude that was so much in vogue. as a matter of fact, i am pretty sure that there were a few years in the mid 80's that one just didn't wear anything but black. it was everywhere.

it made sense too, cuz we were all in mourning. the gay plague was creeping in. so many gay boys were going to carousel- (that's a vague logan's run reference- if you haven't seen the film- please do). anyway it was a time for black. and a time for feeling like an outsider. and this was just about the time, perhaps a year prior to, i started developing my first glimpse of a substance use problem. cocaine seemed to be so easily gotten then. it seemed like everybody i knew (and didn't know) wanted to hang out in the club and free bumps were an easy ticket in.