i came home from work last night to find a care package in the mail. it's from a friend in boulder and contains 4 cd's-"the dana owens album"- "henri salvador"-"jubilant sykes"and something called "jazz and the eighties".
i must say i was a bit taken aback at his sweet thoughtfulness. i forget that there are people in the world besides my immediate posse who care about me and want me to succeed and be happy.
i have to remember on a daily basis to make room in my heart for wonderful things to happen. wake up each day and drink from the cup of life. when it's bitter just spit it out. but when it's sweet, take it in.
this care package- it's not the thing i was hoping for and so it's not a dream come true. it's better. it's unsolicitated kindness and it rocks....and i want this feeling to come back again and again.
I'm certain that this time
There's no going back
After everything I went to tell you no
You know well that it's not certain
I'm dying inside
And now I realize
That without you I'm nothing
I've lost the strength
I've lost the desire
I tried to find you
In other people
They're not the same
It's not the same
An abyss separates us
Come back
Because without you my life just goes by
Come back
Because I can't breathe if you're not here
Come back
No one can take your place
There's so much space
If you're not here
A minute doesn't go by that I don't think (about you)
Without you my life passes slowly by
Something tells me
That it's not worth it
So many sleepless nights
Hugging my pillow
If I could I'd turn back time
Now that I understand you
Now that I've lost you
And despite that I went
to tell you no
Without a doubt I'm still here begging you
Come back
Because without you my life just goes by.
and if you hadn't noticed, i'm declaring today ricky martin day. and i'm happy to be alive today.
3 comments:
"I have to remember on a daily basis to make room in my heart for wonderful things to happen. wake up each day and drink from the cup of life. when it's bitter just spit it out. but when it's sweet, take it in."
Very powerful insight. Causes me to realize how 99% of my days are spent in anticipation of doom. That doesn't allow room for the serendipity of kindness. Since I've been focused on the "ask God to remove defects of character" step this week, I will add this to the list.
Thanks for the Ricky material too. Damn is he looking fine or what?
Hi dear Rod,
I have been scarce for the past six weeks working through some tough personal stuff.
Yummi, the Ricky Martin pic!
You're not too bad yourself either, dude. That is the first pic I saw of you where I can really see what you look like.
I am obsessed with the Zimbabwean situation and can barely handle that history seems to be repeating itself once again there - at least it takes the focus off one's own woes.
Still rooting for you
Krok
I am so totally in sync with Ricky Martin Day. My Spanish is minimal and I never understand much beyond the chorus (it's repeated often enough for me to finally have an aha moment) but the rhythms, the quality of his voice, just gets under my skin.
Opening yourself to wonder things makes the world an oasis of surprise and delight.
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