stir of echoes

today was a myriad of events.

i got a call from a colleague who was hosting a fairly important meeting at his office. i guess his office mate was having a foulmouthed argument on the phone with someone else at the same time. even three location changes in the office couldn't mask the vulgarity and the pervasive anger. he was non-plussed and needed to vent for over a half hour. his verbiage was unbridled and his tone was intense. i definitely had a mood shift after this.

i spoke with the office that offered me a contract today. their approval department kicked out my contract request and asked for explanation. i haven't really been counting on it completely, but i was required to take out an insurance policy in order to apply. that's money i wouldn't get back. i'm sure it will come in handy.

one of the dipthoids that worked with me at my former office was nominated to co-chair a committee that i chair today. he declined, but then is still considering. what am i supposed to learn here? that i'm not in control? i know it will all work out, but i totally felt like i had been tasered.

i started my new counseling position last night. not used to working into the evening, but it felt good. i know very well the ambivalence to change i encounter there. after reading marc's post today, i have made this addendum:

i asked the students (9 all of which were under 35) what their impression of the democratic convention was. this is in suburban denver and most of their lives were uninterrupted by the chaos, extra security, or celebrity that ensued. one person shared that he felt inspired and would be voting for the 1st time in his life. the others stated that they never vote. they don't think their vote counts. that means 8/9 persons in that room feel completely disconnected by our political process and our form of government, and take what is thrown at them.

dream a little dream

image credit - hy-art design

We should show life neither as it is or as it it ought to be, but only as we see it in our dreams.
Count Leo Tolstoy

i am spending time regenerating my body and my soul these days. i have begun my exercise program and restarted my nutritional supplements. i drink an antioxidant beverage twice a day. i have gone back to the gym and to my step classes. my calves- both of which i injured late last year, seem to have healed well enough and are not giving me issues.(like i really need anymore)

i have let the support that has come my way make its way into my psyche and my heart. i have received calls from very many people from different aspects of my life offering friendship and support, and i am taking it in.

and i am formulating an intention that i am going to be allright, actually better than allright. i am going to be fantastic. trust the process. work on the eight pillars. make room for success, wellness, happiness, and love.

oh, and i have a job interview today that i have been looking forward to .

Psychological theorists of dreams focus upon our thoughts and emotions, and speculate that dreams deal with immediate concerns in our lives, such as unfinished business from the day, or concerns we are incapable of handling during the course of the day. Dreams can, in fact, teach us things about ourselves that we are unaware of.

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marc- i picked this song with you in mind today.