spence wearing his mom's bifocals... ain't he cute?
some random things leftover from sunday
i had repeat dreams on saturday evening. i slept very unsoundly and woke up several times. i dreamt twice that i was living in an apartment that was split by a public hallway. the unit was on the ground level and the bedroom was on one side of the hall and the rest of the unit was on the other. the bedroom was broken into and robbed. all my clothing was gone. i opened my closet and there was nothing there.
the other one.. i was standing at what seemed to be belmont harbor in chicago and my current next door neighbor's mother had a small yacht heading in from lake michigan. the wind was fierce and picked the boats sail and tipped the boat over, knocking it top first into the water. it began to submerge quickly and i dove in to save her. i was swooshing down into the water as quickly as i could, but i couldn't keep up with the speed of the yacht sinking. i couldn't reach it.
i had both of these dreams twice.
i woke up feeling almost hung over. i have felt like that many times in my life, but not in the last few years. i realized i was blessed because i didn't have to worry about what was real. i knew these were dreams. i simply couldn't surmise the meanings.
ruben, alex, and i went to dinner on saturday after the meeting. i am feeling closer to these boys, the more time i spend with them. they are funny, smart, and very, very sweet.
went to a SIN breakfast on sunday morning. almost 20 guys! this is a great turnout for denver. and there were at least 5 new folks. we got 10 new members this week. i'm gonna work on a singles mixer.
am making a final decision about going to la for cmala at the end of this month. i have to check w/a friend to see if i can crash there and rent a car, or to get a hotel and not have transportation. another good friend of mine will be in la for a tony robbins workshop that same weekend.
drove up to my cousin's house near greeley and spent the night. we watched "the secret" and i went to bed early. i know that movie's concept very well, i guess i simply forget to make it a priority. it needs to be a priority. the following don henley lyrics could easily apply to the not-so-productive thoughts i have about myself:
I got the call today, I didnt wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old, true friend of ours was talkin on the phone
She said you'd found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside loves open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?
i thought you might like this version of these songs.... here are the lyrics for the first one... definitely poetry that speaks to me.