i'll keep holdin on

In all times of emotional disturbance or indecision, we can pause, ask for quiet, and in the stillness simply say: "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.

i have a couple of good things happening today. both involve getting together with friends and just being. we will work on things, eat, laugh, and maybe do a little processing, too.

this is a welcome addition to my life this week. i need to laugh and i need to remember that the journey is the reason for life. there is not a destination necessarily. that this is the real deal.

i have found myself really wanting to be anywhere but where i am at currently in my life. i am in the middle of some circumstances that are definitely toxic, and i am working on amending that situation. in conjunction with this though, i feel stuck, my ego wants to strike, my heart wants to close up, and i suppose this is the lesson i need right now. and this desire to be anywhere but here is very familiar. it has been repeated throughout my lifetime on many different levels. and giving in to those urges have not historically led me to anything healthier. so i am trying something different this time, with the hopes of getting different results.

the 12step philosophy really is a design for living.

As the day goes on, we can pause where situations must be met and decisions made, and renew the simple request: "Thy will, not mine, be done."

i love this song. i posted it last year, too, albeit a different version. the lyrics speak to me and in case you are interested you can read them here.

oh, and have a lovely sunday-