with every heartbeat

today is a red ribbon day for me. i am having lunch with a committee for persons with hiv as part of their day retreat to redefine their purpose. they are a committee for persons of color with hiv. i co-chair a committee for the same body but more general and not exclusively for persons of color. our committee is currently undergoing a mission clarification as well, and i believe we might try to align our mission statements somewhat and try to work in accord much more consciously.

i also am participating in a photo day for HRSA and with MOHR. The first, a national health service organization, is publishing an article on Denver and highlighting it as a city which exemplifies implementation of the latest Ryan White legislation. and i have been named along with a couple of other colleagues as a person who has made a difference in the delivery of HIV services in the denver metro area. as a matter of fact, news of this stimulated the writing of that nasty letter i published a while back. but i am humbled by the whole thing and wonder what any fuss is about.


and SIN Colorado has decided to work with Lannie Garrett again to help raise awareness of our HIV gay men's social network and to help raise funds for the SIN newsletter which i would like to publish early next month. so much going on. and i am pleased with most of the work i get to participate in. i cannot believe that only a few short years ago i felt quite useless and near the end of my rope. and now, i am being named as someone who helps make a difference. this is a miracle. this is a testament that change does occur. it also validates that there are forces much more powerful than me at work in my life, creating situations far better than i could have imagined for myself.

feeling sad? feeling useless? i've been there. get involved somehow helping people. don't patronize them, but help them feel better about themselves and help them help themselves. it does wonders for the soul....

and for those who know me well......

Robyn Lyrics - With Every Heartbeat Lyrics

Maybe we could make it all right
We could make it better sometime
Maybe we could make it happen baby
We could keep trying
but things will never change
So I don’t look back
Still I’m dying with every step I take
But I don’t look back
Just a little, little bit better
Good enough to waste some time
Tell me would it make you happy baby
We could keep trying
but things will never change
So I don’t look back
Still I’m dying with every step I take
But I don’t look back
We could keep trying
but things will never change
So I don’t look back
Still I’m dying with every step I take
But I don’t look back