Don't know why
I'm survivin' every lonely day
When there's got to be no chance for me
My life would end
And it doesn't matter how I cry
My tears, so far, are a waste of time
If I turn away
Am I strong enough to see it through?
Go crazy is what I will do
i have noticed a shift in my thinking lately. there is much around me these days that i find intoxicating. many things to learn. new experiences. new conversations. and new perspectives of things that have been around me a long while. all this has found me reeling with the feeling that my head is spinning on my shoulders at times.
underneath all this is also the germination of an interesting perspective, too. i am feeling a little security which is highly unusual for me. i have been a gypsy most of my life. not just in my location, but also within my heart. i have always been nomadic with friends, in love, and with inspiration. but what may now be sprouting is a definitely new. i am finding safety and comfort in where i am, and am feeling a lack of desperation to hold on to controling where i am. another way to say it is i am not feeling the need to wander. i don't wanna flee. i am feeling contented. i am surrendering.
ahhhh. it feels good.
so many mo's i talk to seem to be ready for this 'mo to steal the show. i don't know. he's pretty damn good. what do y'all think?