mask

 Bury all your secrets in my skin

Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins

The air around me still feels like a cage

And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again

early up today. couldn't sleep actually. i got a call and an email about something that was in the last SIN newsletter. an image was used for its intended purpose and there is some discontent with that image. i have been wrestling with my decision to use it, with the asking of permission, and with the actual complaint. i know that i definitely asked and received permission to use this image. i know that my reason to use it was decent. but i had no idea that it would cause such a ruckus. it doesn't seem real that it would be viewed as an invasion of privacy. it was a public photo and a release was signed for marketing. it is not used at all out of context.

there is a part of me that wonders what the meaning behind this drama is. how is it possible that the 600 copies of the publication that have been distributed only in hiv clinics and community based organizations have made it into the hands of someone so disconnected from the world of hiv and a city of 3 million? and if the messenger of this information was of the "evil axis" kind, how is this publication at fault? what about the intention of the delivery of this message?

and yet there are hurt feelings involved. this is the hardest pill to swallow. no matter what my belief about the charge that has been hurled, at the end of the day it is my responsibility to address it. this kind of result is not okay by me. i don't want to  be the cause of hurt in anyone- at least intentionally. but i cannot foresee all things either. if a photograph is taken, a release is given and signed, it would be safe to assume that when marketing for that product is done, that release would be understood. i guess i will have to be more careful in future. i am learning it is not best to assume anything when it comes to people. and i hope this individual can find the space to heal. from whatever any and all the ailments are.

today's sound choice is definitely a bit quirky. i do love this song and i love the band's image. my local radio station has been playing it for awhile and i always turn it up. here is slipknot with "snuff" it was recorded of jimmy kimmel so you may want to turn it up.... this song takes me back to my high school rock and roll days...




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easy like a sunday morning

There are many many crazy things
That will keep me loving you
And with your permission
May I list a few

colorado is finally putting up a website for resources for persons living with hiv. it has been a long time coming. the pic above is just a peek. the actual launch is tomorrow evening. the planning council will be meeting with the mayor and other city officials for the launch of the new HIV website resource for colorado. this is the 1st of 3 phases. sidenote: tomorrow will be the 3rd time i will be in the presence of the mayor in the last week, too.

i guess the importance here in my mind, is the actual fact that we are making an effort to step into the 21st century with some forethought. there are many coloradans both in suburban and rural areas who may gain some needed insight without having to come into a metro location. and then there is that damn isolation and aloneness that hiv can bring. maybe this will address that somehow.

i am including the link for the pilot site here. the actual site will come online tomorrow and i will change the link. i love this one because of the color scheme and because of the plus sign that frames out those human faces like an odd window. it almost compels me to want to look further.

i am working the 3rd holiday party for the weekend. it is a brunch. and i think it is new orleans food, but i cannot remember. last night's dinner was spectacular. boeuf bourgignon, potatoes au gratin, and green beans with almonds and truffle oil. mayor hickenlooper was there, as were some folk singers from california who ended up performing a very homey rendition of "you can't take that away from me".

today's sound choice is vintage ella and louis doing "you can't take that away from me". there are so many versions of this song. diana kralls is very good. there's even one that has a little rodgers and astaire with their lost art of ballroom dancing .