babylon back in business......bounce bounce

having just come from dinner with a coupla good friends, i am reminded that my journey has purpose and value. the word was released today that a very small grant has been bestowed on the meth project i am spearheading by a private health foundation.  i was informed of this incredibly great news today which was then followed by some fairly disappointing news  on top of that. both news items are completely connected and i was left feeling completely underwhelmed with the process of my career and the direction of a supervisor. i am feeling there has been a complete breech of trust which blindsighted me and i am left unsure about how to continue without losing my allegiance and my desire to put my heart into my work. this is a real dilemma for me still today. but, after my dinner, i feel much, much better about the efforts that i have been putting forward and also validated around my perception of the entire program. it helped so much to be validated by my friends, i can't begin to express. to be seen and acknowledged by eyes that are discriminating is so very powerful. and just because i am in recovery certainly doesn't mean the rest of the world is or is going to be. and i have to learn to navigate in babylon in order to be effective and in order to survive. and i need to be able to stay true to my beliefs and values while i do this. and keep my own ego out of the mix. i need a higher source of strength for this one.

 

robbie williams- another warrior

he really did get his start in a boy band, didn't he? i think that is perfectly acceptable. and he just went into rehab in february. and i think that is perfectly acceptable as well. admirable actually. it really is not easy at all having to be the party so many nights out of the year. and that we can expect people to weather these demands with no repercussions is ludicrous. of course in that position, you need help keeping things going all night at a certain pace once in awhile. and once in awhile can turn into something more so very easily. i don't wanna rock... dj.. but you're making me feel allright. when's it gonna stop dj.... you're keepin me up all night. and then,when it does turn into something more, like abuse or addiction, we berate someone for their lack of moderation. thank goodness for rehab. i think it's a brave turn of events- surrender and rehab. and i wish him well.