backstabber

 

what do ya do with an extra million bucks? i have been discussing this question with some folks on the exec committee and trying to come up with a plan that the larger group of us will be able to come to some agreement on. it's not an easy task- this, because, no doubt, everyone in the group will have their own ideas about how to spend it, and naturally, not everyone's ideas can come to fruition. the hard part is wondering what will actually transpire at the next meeting. when there is a good deal of money involved, there is likely to be some emotionality. will there be very angry people? will they have already invested themselves in the idea of getting a slice of that pie? my intuition says yes, but i will just have to wait and see.

and on the more grounded side of my life, i can hardly believe i am in this whole situation just described, considering where my life was just a few short years ago. leaps and bounds my friends. leaps and bounds. and there is a lesson in this for me. i need to try to stay true, stay honest, and remain consistent with doing the next "right" thing. and remain loyal.

i can only hope that someone is reading this somewhere and has the opportunity to get the notion that a life that is stuck in a shitpile can actually move into something that is entirely of a different nature that is made up of self esteem and purpose. like maybe a blessing. or normalcy. or a miracle.

 

i know this band has been around for a couple of years, but i have only just begun to listen to them. their aesthetic is very soothing and compelling for me. they seem so androgynous and so pale- i guess a bit goth. and that always makes me smile. and i think it's kinda radical and kinda cool that these guys generate  tommy lee and amanda and tori references.