i was reading the summer edition of the crystal clear newsletter published by nycma and i was inspired. i don't know if you've read it, but it really emphasizes and punctuates the fact that recovery is not a task that is complished alone. it takes other people to support and expand our version of what recovery should look like. even the folks who seem to have a program working that we find difficulty in connecting with. those persons, sometimes, can be our best teachers.
the newsletter also has a good article about looking for a sober superhero and it spoke to me. i have so many expectations of people i meet these days, especially people in recovery. i didn't realize that i was expecting too much (maybe) from the people who have gotten clean and are in my life now. after all, we all still have many of the same other struggles. but the real question is when did my own recovery stop being enough? when did i start again to look for answers from others?
if you haven't read the crystal clear newsletter or seen the nycma website, then i would suggest it. or better yet, look at some of the literature available and place an order and please do so with your heart open. the new collection of stories by people in recovery from meth "expressions of hope" is heartfelt and beautiful. there is more and more support out in the blogosphere, the world, and beyond for people who have a desire to quit using meth, or are even considering it. it this sounds like you, i encourage you to take advantage of this help. and if you have any questions- email me or anyone on the blogroll - leave a comment- reaching out and asking for help may save your ass. just don't hope that any folks in recovery are any better than you are . no super powers here. all most of us have is an honest desire to pass along some of this blessing we call recovery. it is the most valuable gift we can give.
2 comments:
I so agree with every word you wrote here. Recovery from addiction just can't end with quitting. That's the start and is often harder than the quitting.
for me that is definitely the case. the challenge is facing life with new/unkown coping skills. it's a trip to meet a situation with very little strategy. or to have to sit with feeling insignificant or normal. so much of my life was while high was in blacklight, and now that has gone away. it's a process that requires patience. and lots of feeling uninformed or unprepared.
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