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Decompression Chamber for Obamniacs

This is a place that practices Freedom of Expression. This is my personal blog. I'm also, the owner of the group Decompression Chamber. The chamber, I guess it's sort of like a big trash bin. A place we can dump our negative thoughts, feelings, emotions and baggage. I am inviting all to join. I review request daily. So, let's talk it out.

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it's been a coupla weeks since i left my last job, and i must say i feel much better. it took a bit of time to decompress because the whole situation had become so unhealthy. i had no idea that i had become so unhappy really. it never dawned on me that the politics of the workplace could be so detrimental to my mental health. i really had found much satisfaction in working with other addicts and somehow just figured that the rest of the insanity was just part of the price of the work.

but i am coming to believe that is not so. it's not a requirement to enable behaviors such as lies, manipulation, triangulation, posturing, and deception in order to offer support and assistance to persons when they need help. i have worked tenaciously for something much more wholesome.

immediately upon leaving, i felt very much that i had failed and that what self-worth i felt i knew was escaping just like helium from a punctured balloon. and this has been a challenge for me to traverse. i am sure i haven't done it perfectly. but where i find myself today, i am feeling that i am coming through this storm i have been in. i see hope and i am keeping my heart open for something wonderful to happen. i need to remember that i am a survivor and even if i only give others hope for their own survival once in awhile for the rest of my life, then i need to be ready to offer it when it's needed.

i've got work to do, at least that's what i hope. i'm not clear on exactly what that work is, but i am solid in my belief that it is there. and i pray i will recognize it when it knocks at my door, 'cuz the best is yet to come.