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Monday, May 19, 2008

emotions



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i can relate to a need for such a place.....

Decompression Chamber for Obamniacs

This is a place that practices Freedom of Expression. This is my personal blog. I'm also, the owner of the group Decompression Chamber. The chamber, I guess it's sort of like a big trash bin. A place we can dump our negative thoughts, feelings, emotions and baggage. I am inviting all to join. I review request daily. So, let's talk it out.
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it's been a coupla weeks since i left my last job, and i must say i feel much better. it took a bit of time to decompress because the whole situation had become so unhealthy. i had no idea that i had become so unhappy really. it never dawned on me that the politics of the workplace could be so detrimental to my mental health. i really had found much satisfaction in working with other addicts and somehow just figured that the rest of the insanity was just part of the price of the work.

but i am coming to believe that is not so. it's not a requirement to enable behaviors such as lies, manipulation, triangulation, posturing, and deception in order to offer support and assistance to persons when they need help. i have worked tenaciously for something much more wholesome.

immediately upon leaving, i felt very much that i had failed and that what self-worth i felt i knew was escaping just like helium from a punctured balloon. and this has been a challenge for me to traverse. i am sure i haven't done it perfectly. but where i find myself today, i am feeling that i am coming through this storm i have been in. i see hope and i am keeping my heart open for something wonderful to happen. i need to remember that i am a survivor and even if i only give others hope for their own survival once in awhile for the rest of my life, then i need to be ready to offer it when it's needed.

i've got work to do, at least that's what i hope. i'm not clear on exactly what that work is, but i am solid in my belief that it is there. and i pray i will recognize it when it knocks at my door, 'cuz the best is yet to come.


2 comments:

Java said...

I'm so glad you are coming out the other side of the canopy of negativity you've been under. The sun is shining out here!

Mark Olmsted said...

That video gave me so much pleasure. And I always thought it was Natalie Cole or the Pointer Sisters.
Wonder what happened to the Emotions.

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