Friday, February 19, 2010
some days, some weeks, some months, i just know somehow that things are not steady. things are gonna be kinda jumbled. things are gonna feel topsy-turvy. it's not all the time, but it does happen and it happens with some repetition. this is one of those times for me.
i am meeting with a handful of people right now who are struggling in their lives, and their stories read like a william s burroughs cut-up. the plot(s) almost seem from outer space. most likely they are fragments of fuller stories strewn together in a hodge podge, have-to-make-sense-of-it-all kinda way. the listening and the deciphering is definitely an adventure and a humbling experience. i lose sight of my direction often, muddling through ralph kramdon logic and ed norton statistics that i am given. i recognize fear and false bravado, but see it disguised as very odd tarantino-like characters with their eyes on the opposite lane.
i would laugh, but it just isnt' appropriate here. at least not yet. there is excavating to do and a necessity for getting clarification on direction. or maybe i just try to provide a memorable rest stop... if i can do just this, it will make some sense of this very jumbled and collaged slice of my life. i am in no way complaining here. simply journaling about the imbalance and the turbulence.
today's sound choice is josh groban with "february song"