my little home is still in complete disarray. the painting should be finished today, which is completely fantastic. the photograph (from the Restoration Hardware catalog) is the new color which i am really pleased with. but my belongings are everywhere and i am really ready (and have begun) to purge quite a bit. i gave away the old dining room table and chairs, a hutch, and the oversized rug that had been in the front room. now it looks pretty bare, except that the color is soothing and distracts me for the moment.
i also moved my bedroom furniture around and so i slept with my head and feet facing in a new direction last night. i woke up around the same time, but am curious to see if it will make any difference. i have always tried to sleep with my head facing east and my feet towards the setting sun. however, now things are slightly at an angle.
currently, the walls are completely bare. all the pictures and hoo haas are stacked waiting for new placement. some drawers of the items which have been shuffled a bit have been emptied and their contents are also stacked waiting for reassignment.
i guess my point here is that my life is in complete flux. and it is a metaphor for what is going on inside as well. it so much reminds me of my step four. everything has been pulled down and shifted to accommodate the new surfacing that's going on. it's all in a mish-mosh of order and it's so challenging to feel rested or comfortable. i know some of you reading this have or will be experiencing your first step four, and i want to share with you my experience here. i have developed some faith that i will be okay through this process. even though inside i am at my wit's end because the usual order and peace is lost. it is going to be worth the change, the chaos, one day will be forgotten, and a more comfortable and beautiful home will result.
blessings be.
this is a little bit of backtrackin. la india- what a voice! let's do a little demo- on the way to the store....
then at work in the studio
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