in the nick

italian made nik nik shirt from the 1970's


i am posting this youtube that was forwarded to me by a 12step program website. it made me smile and remember that there are always others making a similar journey out of hell. it's a blessing to watch them appear out of what seems to be nowhere, yet i guess they are right where they should be.

i have an idea of the tenacity required to keep a blog/vlog going during early recovery, as do others i know. i think it's a great way to journal and to reach out at the same time.

i want to tell him that recovery works. if i work for it as cleverly as i used to find dope it remains within my grasp. and it has shown me it is worth working toward.




am i crazy? this was the question i asked myself the most the first year i was getting clean. i now know i was seriously crazy by the end of my getting high days, but that first year... man, it was just as painful. quitting meth? maybe your hallucinations will stop now. the crazies don't stop for quite awhile. maybe you ARE losing your mind now that you've stopped using, or maybe you are just becoming unwound. maybe you quit just in the nick of time. either way, getting clean really felt like a drag! couldn't resist myself here. the second song this performer is lipsynching is my very very favorite la lupe number.

spanglish

the voice of america has changed. and i am hopeful it continues to change. i don't know if you have heard la lupe before, but she has been a favorite of mine for years now. her voice and her delivery were completely her own, and her story and her struggles are not foreign at all.

these americans and not-yet-americans among us do have incredible stories. tales of bravery, tales of daring, tales of struggles. they are us and i believe we must acknowledge them as being us. not separate from, not different than, but simply us. no better, no worse.

Room Service : "Morrin. Roon sirbees."

Guest : "Sorry, I thought I dialed room-service."

Room Service: " Rye. Roon sirbees...morrin! Joowish to oddor
sunteen???"

Guest: "Uh..... Yes, I'd like to order bacon and eggs."

Room Service: "Ow July den?" &n bsp;

Guest: ".....What??"

Room Service: "Ow July den?!?... pryed, boyud, poochd?"

Guest: "Oh, the eggs! How do I like them? Sorry..
scrambled, please."

Room Service: "Ow July dee baykem? Crease?"

Guest: "Crisp will be fine."

Room Service: "Hokay. An Sahn toes?"

Guest: "What?"

Room Service: "An toes. July Sahn toes?"

Guest: "I... don't think so."

Room Service: "No? Judo wan sahn toes???"

Guest: "I feel really bad about this, but I don't know what
'judo wan sahn toes' means."

Room Service: "Toes! Toes!...Why Joo don Juan toes? Ow bow
Anglish moppin we bodder?"

Guest: "Oh, English muffin!!! I've got it! You were saying
'toast'...

Fine...Yes, an English muffin will be fine."

Room Service: "We bodder?"

Guest: "No, just put the bodder on the side."

Room Service: "Wad?!?"

Guest: "I mean butter... just put the butter on the side"

Room Service: "Copy?"

Guest: "Excuse me?"

Room Service: "Copy...tea..meel?"

Guest: "Yes. Coffee, please... and that's everything."

Room Service: "One Minnie. Scramah egg, crease baykem, Anglish
moppin, we bodder on sigh and copy ... rye??"

Guest: "Whatever you say."

Room Service: "Tenjooberrymuds."

Guest: "You're welcome"