sense of wonder

Everything is changeable, everything appears and disappears; there is no blissful peace until one passes beyond the agony of life and death... Buddha

i spent a full day with a client on my first day back at work. we had several stops to make. i didn't have time to worry about myself one bit. this was pleasant. somehow this gives me great hope.

another full day. work. lunch w/ my lawyer. meetings. back to basics is where i go to find fuel to continue on. back to basics.

Give me release
witness me
I am outside
give me peace

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
and I wanted to believe
that I'd get caught up
when the rage in me subsides

In this white wave
I am sinking
in this silence
in this white wave
in this silence
I believe

sarah mclachlan full lyrics here

sssshhhhhh

i struggle with the gay marriage issue in my head because of the assimilation issues. i'm such a liberal at heart, and i wonder why we yearn to be placed in a mold that doesn't seem to work very well for such a large segment of people and is designed for a different population. i completely understand the equal rights overture and the right to love and the need for that right and that love to be recognized.

i stumbled upon this vid and i realize again that i don't know it all and that love, companionship, and relationship need to be defined by the people who are in it. because they understand their particular place in the world better than anyone else.

i'll let the persons in love do their own pigeonholing if i can. leave it up to the interested parties. sometimes, i don't understand a thing, but it really doesn't matter. some things i really don't need to know. i can just watch and listen and i can just believe.