dilemma...silk or linen

this is certainly a frou frou entry. i have been trying to decide which window coverings to use. i am putting in new carpeting and i think i just need to update a little. i am leaning towards the belgian linen, but who knows.

i laugh to myself as i type this, because this is completely a gold-plated problem to have. it's quite a departure from the dilemnas i use to have. i am sure that this focus is a reflection of where my heart is. i see myself as in a "nesting" state of mind.

i learn more about myself each day and this process is no exception.

today's sound choice is someone i learned about from an old friend on facebook. she said she went for awhile absolutely needing a daily fix of andrew bird. here is his "imitosis" (sidebar- the two bugs with the jewelry are reminiscent of dorian gray as he grew older and became more jaded...he would watch tortoises with semi-precious stones embedded reflect and refract the sunlight as they meandred across the floor....

equinox

i wanted a little something today to match how my mood. somehow vivaldi came to mind. i feel as if i am in a thaw. i have noticed new ideas and remembered feelings sprouting out around me.

it's mainly glorious. if i were dancing it would be fitting as i surely feel as a sprite would feel. full of skip and bounce. things are evolving and changing and it's the time for the light to play with my perception and experience.

i watched prayers for bobby last night and had a fantastic cry. it was an april shower and i needed it desperately in my high plains desert heart.

today's sound choice is vivaldi's spring

hello kitty

i had dinner with my friend jim last night. we went to cherry creek grille and had a really good supper. we discussed his family and how screwed up his month of march was for him. and, of course, we discussed how screwed mine was as well. he was talking to me about an ancient jewish mystic tradition of taking on a new name just before passover so it would fool the evil spirits into not being able to find you. so he decided to give me a new name as tomorrow passover begins. that name is "kitty". he is giving me this name because i have had so many lives and somehow always seem to land on my feet.

funny i heard a similar thing from the director of mohr yesterday, too. so i wouldn't have picked kitty as my name, but i'm not going to pass it up either. i am totally into fooling any evil spirits into not finding me.

so, just to be safe, if you see me, could you just say "hello kitty" please? that would be just purrrrfect!

finally

We work on ourselves in order to help others, but also we help others in order to work on ourselves.

pema chodron

i am including a couple of quotes that i found inspiring today. i know that change is happening around me. and i know i don't know where my life is heading. i am, however, regaining my faith in my path. man it is so incredibly challenging for me to find trust when i am passing through another gateway without certainty of the next stop. but i have to keep trying to believe in tomorrow.

Faith is a process of leaping into the abyss not on the basis of any certainty about ~where~ we shall land, but rather on the belief that we ~shall~ land.”

carter heywerd