planet unicorn

here's an episode i hadn't seen until today. yukky debbie..

ari gold(s)

firstly i think this clip quite funny. definitely illustrates denial. and then i love this bit from "the entourage" site, too.(just type in the provided spaces): ari gold

second ari






i don't know what it is about this ari gold that i like, but there is something. this is quite jv, but i find it well executed and i like the lifting quality of the song. ari gold. plus i really do like animation.

the new ari gold release.

Animation Virus

i googled gay crystal meth recovery while online last night and i came across this site.


please take the time to read for a moment: twacked



it's kinda eerie for me. it's almost like an episode of the twilight zone (which i loved btw.) we could be witnessing the last place on earth this being was before they were lifted off into the 4400 of meth use. i suppose it's wrong of me to assume that it's a relapse, but that's the first place my mind went. even considering the posts about his condition and the color of his urine. i hope i'm wrong for his sake and i pray he's okay. i certainly would be happy to be incorrect. i especially relate to his inability to make the keyboard work. that was so very very much a part of my tweaking dilemma. i couldn't remember how to operate the simple aspects of a computer. i used to spend so much of my time trying to figure out how to close a screen window because i always wanted to open it again to make sure i could close it again.

one time i called sbc who was my isp at the time and told the help desk(at about 2am) that i was hearing voices from my modem. he said things like: "you don't say" and "hmmm, can't imagine what that is." i had a whole screenplay written in my head ( i was always writing screenplays in my head) about a new virus which was taking over the world (a la "what's so bad about feeling good?"). It was actually a computer generated virus that would infect through the skin and people would become cartoons and inanimate objects would suddenly become animated. of course it was to be called Animation Virus. catchy eh?

meth use causes lack of sleep. and lack of sleep causes hallucinations, both visual and auditory, and even psychoses. it is very common in tweakers to go days without sleeping and start hearing and seeing things that they believe are completely real. and there is no way you can convince them of anything else. and even in early recovery some residual hallucinations and emotional discharges are likely. it's not easy to come down off meth. it takes some patience and it takes some overseeing.

omg- watching this shit really gives me chills. it depicts precisely how i used to spend many, many, many of my days. my chat box was always on with someone on an m4m site, though.

saturday morning cartoons

doncha?



and for all you one-eyed snake charmers out there......

saturday morning cartoons

i wanted to say good morning from winter park. it is already proving to be an interesting weekend. we arrived about 9p last evening and had to get right to work. alex and i are on the entertainment committee and were running the bingo game which started at 10p. it went really well. lots of prizes were given away, people were laughing. our intention was to play "let's make a deal" bingo so we had 3 boxes which the winners of each bingo would then choose which box to pick their prize from. we were hoping the audience would get more involved with helping the winner choose, but it really didn't happen quite like we envisioned. it still happened though and sailed along. it's really just a way to give people a chance to see one another and get used to being around each other. definite social time.

there are a couple of guys here that i met in miami at the florida roundup and some really pretty men from dallas. eric from dallas became our bingo caller as he was raised in a bingo "house". he was very funny and did a great job! our friday speaker was dan from honolulu and he is the sweetest man i've met in awhile. he teaches sociology, has a sweetly attractive aura and goes out of his way to make people feel welcome. these are just a few, and then there are all the people in recovery from denver that i have never met before. the realm of possibilities just gets greater.

i'm going for a run with my buddy john early am and then doing the hike-to meeting at 7am, so i probably won't post until late in the day. i expect a few things to unfold and some of it may actually be interesting. there is a cleansing and rejuvenating spirit to these events and it is fun to let it wash over me. so that's my intention.

saturday morning cartoons

this week we have 2 episodes of an animated series entitled methheads living in bakersfield. the title speaks for itself. it's pretty dry, but it stuck for some reason. two episodes here 'cuz.... well, 'cuz i'm an addict.






this follow up is funny, and has some pretty sweet musical selections. short, sweet, and to the point.